
Kamber's 2nd Birthday
Today is Kamber's 4th birthday..... Would be her 4th... is her 4th... which one do you say? I believe that she lives on so I would say it IS her 4th birthday. But I know that Jen and Ethan will be able to raise her, so does that mean she's staying 2 1/2 until they're together again??? Something to think about I guess.
Tanner and I weren't able to go with everyone to the cemetery today. I wish we could have. It was so sweet last year to have the balloon release and watch them all float up into the sky. We all wrote a little message to Kamber and tied it to our balloon before we sent them off.

Jen I hope you don't mind if I share this next part.
After I wrote Kamber my note I was putting my pen back in the "pen can" and happened to glance over at Jen. She was kneeling down writing her message and I saw over her shoulder. (sorry Jen didn't mean to :))I think most of us were writing things like "we miss you, we love you, we think about you all the time" But Jen's note said (and I can't remember the exact words now but something to the affect of) "I'll see you soon" I just remember turning around and walking away. It was such a sweet and happy day I didn't want to be the one to ruin it by bursting into tears. But let me tell you.... it broke my heart. To think of Jen, who I adore, not even a year into this... this new life without her little girl, just focusing on that day when they'd be together again. When you think about it, it makes sense. That's ALL you would be focusing on. I think that's how you get through the day, just thinking that the sooner this day ends the sooner we'll be together.
I knew that Jen was probably just taking one day at a time at that point, but it really put it into perspective for me. It seemed so sad, but it was really very touching. So full of hope.

The good news is it's been a year since that day at the cemetery. Not a day, or a week or a month. But a year. And we're now on the down slide to July 25th for a second time. I realize it probably hasn't gone by very fast for Jen, Ethan and the girls. And I doubt it's at all that enjoyable to watch another year pass without Kamber, but it puts them a year closer to seeing her again. And there is nothing better than that.
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Today Tanner and I dropped off Kamber's birthday card. I sat and talked to Jen while Ethan and Tanner (got WAY too excited) played a new video game. When we left I said "I really love them, it's been too long since we've seen them." Tanner agreed and said how cute and sweet the girls are. Because let me tell you, Jen and Ethan make girls right. They're beautiful. Although I do hope this next one is a boy :)
Anyway JEN if you are reading this, we are going to make it a point to get together with you guys more. And I say thank you to Kamber. If it wasn't her birthday we wouldn't have gone over and remembered how much we're missing out on. :)
Happy Birthday Kamber!!!!